Man With Telescope and Mouse
Premonitions in skein-slashed night,
Scratch sleeper’s scabrous eyes.
Wine glasses clinking on conscience,
Sitting ducks slip on ice.
Dreary dream daub of orange sodium
On wall: a street lamp monologue
To passing stranger. Darkened front parlour:
Séance of thick mouths in train
Conjuring decades of danger.
Communing with ghosts conjured
On Devil’s Land between Thorndon Cross
And Holsworthy. Bungalow burgher
On blasted heath seven years on:
English children’s tongues still wag
Nasally in waxy, deaf-aid ears.
Here Is Now from time to time,
And Now Is Often Then. Flagged down
By big city indifference;
Anonymous whip hands at night.
I listen to stale water flowing
Down throats; manhole covers
To subterranean diasporas.
Jeers still heard from
Jesuit priest holes,
Now colonised by a timid mouse.
Reminders of a laughable life
Sent on its way to stillness.
Pendulum no longer swinging
Towards morning’s boombox.
Only handprints are left
In calice soil, clumsy, concealed
Traces. As the minute hand ticks
Thirty-seven, thirty-eight, thirty-nine,
Engraving its motion around my eyes.
Checking at intervals that Northern
Europe is closer to the Sun;
To the crevasse of dawn into which
Cradle and Hearse slide together.
Once more I keel over on one side,
Turn a back on prick polarities
Of conscience. Legs doused in cold:
Locked into scarlet chambers:
Pumping, gurgling pressed to the ear.
Face those eels of compulsion
Writhing in their mazy grey ooze.
Sprouting with flowers of purgatory.
Stumbling over lines perfected years ago
Old tunes regurgitated
In washbasins at seven.
Teacher sits mulling over a teapot: politely stewed.
Time to unlock the casket, let light pour into me.
Dust the telescope down, focus it
Over shoulder; last left hook to the infinite.
Then rise from bed clutching slide rule:
Gauge loss of proportion
In ratio to loss of height.
Leon Brown © 2010
The Incense Angel
Six summers spent in nomadic drift;
A cloud across moor, stone circle, seaport,
Funnelled through black refineries of the heart.
Bereft of two quarters of a self,
The enigmatic mirror goddess to whom
I never whispered in imaginary heat;
Never wreathed limbs with in definitive dark.
I have moulded a purer sense of shame;
Crafted a better sense of self;
With a clarity which comes from slipping
Further below the curve of the earth
Between the creases of a frayed collar shirt
Down, down into the last dregs
Of an ever-present bottle of Dao.
She lurks diaphanous, yet crystalline,
In a dark, cloister heady with scented smoke.
The silk skeins of her tangled hair
Spinning from the altar; wildly
Weaving from the bosom of faith.
Her urging, relentless body dances
One hundred miles down the South Western
Claw of the land. Lurking and beating:
A second drum inside my chest.
Psychically unaware of the host.
Mine is a delusional connection
Left unplugged from my brain.
Like the mosquito she buzzes,
Ecstatically stinging on a plain.
Seductive and wild; a cartwheel-spinning
Athlete of bondage, and release;
Pirouetting across dance halls
Of imagined memory.
Now she sits six summers on in her
Executive swivel chair
At the top of an exalted tower
Built by her own dedication.
Savouring a city’s emerald expanses
Built for her; dispensing random orders
With a charming overbite, a flutter
Of petal eyes; diamonds on steel.
I lie grieving in my woodpulp eyrie,
A grief only growing with wrinkles, stubble,
The first peppering of grey hairs.
Hunched over the postmodern magician’s box;
Limbs jiving to a mute romantic soundtrack,
Limitless, exhumed possibilities:
Now dust – dispersed into fresh, wet air.
Trees and grass throbbing with green electricity,
Or a perspiration prickle on a ripening life.
Rumours circulate on trade winds,
Inject the sky with their fatalistic blue.
My flame never sputters, it keeps on rising.
As the liver grows back next morning;
The heart snaps its moorings, drifting
Towards the garden, crucifying
The mind on a tree of remembrance;
Its splinters of fantasy finally smothered
In a winding sheet of ghosts.
We are all dead, lady, in the same way
I was never alive to you; rather a
Firefly burning so brightly for a day
Then immolated by memory, erased
Before the wings have fallen back to earth.
Leon Brown © 2010