Ian C. Smith
The Spirit of Progress
The Spirit of Progress was the Melbourne –Sydney train until c.1960
As paddocks of silvery grass shiver past
I wear a long overcoat of sadness
watching this wan morning light break
over the ashes of campfires of desperadoes.
My tale of riding back to an arse-whipping
will be embellished for my school mates,
bolstering my status as a rebel.
Across the border I sensed the cop’s shadow
as I stooped to a drinking fountain
after confessing in a weak moment
to a chatty driver who had stopped
for a kid who felt like a fleeing warrior.
Nearly broke, I ration stolen cigarettes,
wish I arrowed the other way, to Sydney.
I dreamt last night in an unlocked cell.
Escorting me onto the famous train
the cop whispered to the buffet car lady.
No handcuffs, but a free meal on railway china,
the condemned ordering whatever he fancies.
Under garish mascara, lipstick, dyed hair,
her face overflows with sympathy.
Telling her, I nearly choke into tears,
pretend I swallowed food the wrong way
when she tells me if I were hers, oh
how she would love me, love me,
her voice swooning with pity, for me,
for herself, for the boy she never had,
as we speed towards what was then the future.
When as a boy
I sat, a survivor, back to forlorn graffiti
I had studied, my body’s inferno cooled
after a winter’s night dressed thinly,
the only thing in the cell apart from me
was an overlooked mat of worn raffia
I had wrapped around the hurry of pain
trying to sleep, so cold, dozing, drifting awake
turning carefully, bone-cold, wrists together
between my thighs, seeking small warmth.
I daydreamed of my girl’s pink velvety bedroom
blearily aware her world was never mine,
daydream now, about a time I keep close,
a story of hurt, half-lit, I enter sometimes,
dreamed of freight trains moaning in the night
to distant places I might reach some day
for I was, remember, still a boy,
my aching heart now in a cage of old ribs
as unlikely as walking free that bleak morning.
Walking our cold road after your overnight stay
a waft of morning wood smoke tang
suggested our distant zesty arrival here,
the attendant blind faith in happenstance,
true of my cell time, a scraped scarred day
when I sat, guardian angel exhausted,
as the crash of opened doors drew ever closer,
faith, the flame in our cells that feeds dreams,
youthful hope unfurling the murmur of days.
Ian C. Smith © 2014
The things we did for money
The boss acts as if gripped by Tourette’s,
his foul constant hectoring so ludicrous
we almost succeed in ignoring it.
Our pay for these irregular days’ labour
takes a week to earn in most casual jobs.
When his packed containers leave the docks
he summons us abruptly by phone.
You need only the time, your own transport,
a healthy body, plus the hide of an immigrant
to unload ceramic tiles at galley-slave pace.
The driver watches, smoking, waiting
while our Cerberus snarls at his toiling scum,
three of us sweating at the double, rattling
solid boxes along a scenic railway of rollers
into the gloom of his cavernous storehouse.
Students, our favourite books as yet unread,
think musk sticks rather than marijuana,
our horizons are still endless with distance,
wise-guys unaware of the clock’s stealth.
Perhaps the boss has haemorrhoids
or resents our loud laughing bonhomie
stretching, languid, chests glistening in the sun
on neat grass outside his headquarters
waiting between deliveries for our hectic future
as we are only employed to unload.
Sitting here all these years on I think,
trees swimming in the last winds of afternoon,
that apoplectic man surely long dead,
how his abuse was deflected because shared,
surprised by this cry from the past, his presence.
Ian C. Smith © 2014